*british english*

Good Morning, Everybody...

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hahahahahah

uhm uhm uhm

i totally have no idea why must Sam called me last night around 7-8

cuz SRJK(C)YukChai he always cross by one wad

why he called me as in like pretending dont know that place?!

make me almost kena scolding from my colleague cuz busy ma

got function to carry on

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haiz

nvm la

he is the one shut off my phone when i called him in the afternoon

he made me damn headeach laaaaa

HELP ME!!

Hello!

nice to meet u again

today what i wanna tell is 

how to understand a guy?

i dont know how to understand but i tried to understand

i failed to understand him

as he didnt contact with me

didnt want to see me

didnt want to talk to me

didnt want to text me

not even one message he reply me

WHY?!

is this the thing i should get from him!?

if he really likes me

he will contact with me 

talk to me

chat with me

text with me said i am busy nowadays 

sorry that didnt accompany you these days

at least he should tell

but i receive nothing from him

everytime i have to worry of him

WHY SHOULD I?!

i hate it

i dislike this kind of feelings

if you were in my situation,

how u feel?!

everytime i dreamed bout him

this is stupid 

and i know it

i dunno why im being that idiot

believe him

i didnt know why i believe him 

since he treat me this way should i just left him not to call text nor even meet him?!

i think i should

since he treat me this way

i always say so but end up my heart still can't stop thinking bout him

sometimes i wonder is he really likes me and all!?

or he is just playing my feelings?

How to make me trust him?

i really very tired 

i felt like sleeping

but when i sleep

im afraid i have the same nightmares inside my dreams

i hate it

once i slapped myself just to wake me up

but i still inside my dream

hard to wake up

i dunno what i eat and all

kena poisoned by him i guess?

LOL

i really felt like dying but what for?

die for him is useless

i though of dying but i wont be so idiot to die for him

even i want to die also not for him but for myself

=D

haiz~~~

hard to understand guys la

teach me how to understand someone!!!!

PLZZZZZZZZZZ

Random~~~

Morning everybody~

Genkiiii deska?

=D

hehe

<3 p="p">

im fine here

^^

well well well

my eye very itchy!!

>.<

red already

=(

who can help me blow?

xD

hmm 

last night i just received Miss Sharine comment on my status

i was so paiseh lehhh

she said im not here to accompany her go shopping so she go alone

She make me feel so guilty la

hahahahahaha

^^

i told her i'm sorry... 

accompany her wherever she go next time

=D

hohoho

one more thing i'm very Head pain

something bout Sam

last night he called me and i picked up his phone calls

he sound so tired

and he shown up his temple

i dunno what to do

and yet

i called him back

he didnt answer

haiz

this kid

a little worry bout him

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HAAHHAHHHAHA Jokes!

wow wow wow~

last night my lady boss(Sharine) told me that these few days she non-stopped eating with me she grows 2 kgs.

xD

should i eat with her again until she round like a balloon?

hahahahaha

joking nia

dont take it seriously

=D

well 

last night i text my boss(Elvin) just for an approval to on leave so that i manage to go bahau, kuala pilah and seremban.

he replied "ok lah go lah"

so i said thank you to him lor

wahhhhh

he misunderstood though that i am going with my bf.

i was shocked!

then i tell him immediately that i dont have bf la....

can't find the right one yet

xD

then he asked me not to find as i am still so young

i told him that i dun wanna be in relationship as i dun wanna get hurt one more time

i can hurt for once but i wont hurt for twice

well he is just worry that we are still young and get cheated by other random guys

he is just trying to take care of we all because we are his staffs.

i also dont think i want to get a new partner cuz my heart still after someone but i know no more hope

i am pretending to talked to him just a few conversation in church sometimes we didnt get to talk as i am playing guitar and he is an adult whom already 27 year old

hahahas

first love 

very hard to forget 

maybe i never forget this feelings leh

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but i'm willing to let go because i know that he choose that way and he must continue that way

and i'm happy when i see him laughing smilling talking ahhaha

like someone no need must together 

u can see him happy u also happy

i really loved him a lot.

in my heart =)

well well well

time passes fast~

i dont want to be in a relationship until i fully forget him

=)

This will be my first and the last one

<3 p="p">

Dream~~~~~~

hi again

just now i no transport

my boss, Elvin Goh,

fetch me home

 so damn scarry and my heartbeat was bip bop bip bop

so damn fast!!!

>.<

xD

LOL

weird right?

i not use to it

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he too cooked for me Mexican Aglio Olio yesterday before i go back home

OMG

==

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i eat i also feel damn paiseh!

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But really very nice

:3

missed it~

>.<

xD

huhuuuuuuuuuu

^^

uhm uhm uhm

say he is my boss only la

but i dun get use to it being friend with boss

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lol

i just feel very very weird

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Well well well

it's time for me to have a goodnight sleep

^^

goodnight my darling and dearest readers

<3 p="p">

Love you all!

Muacks!

Hoping to have....

morning Readers!

=)

how are ya?

fine eh?

good 

=)

have you guys hoping to go anywhere?

when i was form 1 i was hoping that can go japan until now still couldn't go

=(

when i see other ppl went to south korea or japan tokyo,

i felt so envy of them 

i have nothing to say as i never been Sunway before

just imagine, 

someone never been Sunway impossible they been to out station

i wanted go outstation for holiday

and i wanna see

there's a lot i'm hoping for

such as 

Places, Accompany, Relationship and etc....

i couldn't find any

it's difficult~

i never been any PLACES as i'm always in work home work home

no time for me to relax

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i too don't have ACCOMPANY beside me

who dares to near one random girl outside whom you don't know?

somehow i felt so lonely by just work home work home. 

it's like no life at all

i want to change my life

i want to change

i don't want being control by my dad

never ever want to

but i'm being control somehow

sometimes i blame myself

not matured enough to go outside

still kid-dy and need parents to take care of,

i don't want

i want to have my own life

even my own RELATIONSHIP

i want to choose the right and perfect one in my entire life!

i dont want just play play that one is not my character

i am looking some guys that they are understands me caring and etc 

Exacly what did Justin told me on Facebook last night before we go to our nap.

somehow i feel that we are the same kind

what he is looking for

and that's what i'm looking for

i'm looking forward bout Sam

but everytime he made me every disappointed 

i called him 50 - 60 times a day he didnt call me back

i texted him not more than 10 messages a day

as i know he will never reply

i already give up on him and looking forward to others

i know if i follow this guy

i will never happy

everyone see that i am HAPPY 

sure got a lot of friends

but behind my stories,

no friends, accompany and even relationships.

sometimes i though my school friends would understand me but end up they don't 

only 1 understand me

that is BELINDA

others all betrayed my back

talk bad things behind my back

i felt like i'm going to melt like an ice soon

i'm nothing

not to say i'm emotional

i'm not emotional

i just express my own feeling into my blog as a have no one to listen

that would make me feel better

i got to go soon. 

see ya

hope you guys can have a better life

don't become like me ya

=)

happy forever~

give up

i really gave up on him dy

i no more strength to bother u

I GAVE UP

^^

i want to stay happy life

without u i am happy enough

just want to think bout relationship but dun want have a relationship until i find someone suitable for me

=P

BLEK!

yay yay yay

Today is HAPPY SUNDAY!

Enjoy ya!

christmas coming i dunno what to do

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havent buy gifts yet 

>.<

omg!

there's too many things to buy!!!!

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No money liao

T_T